JGL. Tom Hardy. Batman. you guys, i don’t know if my weak heart can take summer 2012.
resolution.
today, i told one of my sort of friends that i think she’s one of the most beautiful girls i’ve ever met. i had thought it for a long time but i only told her today. like, i’ve known her for three years or something and i just told her today.
often i find myself holding back from expressing what i think. i think it’s because i’m a perfectionist and very fearful of making a mistake so one way that manifests is that i hesitate to say what’s on my mind, even about simple things. except when i’ve been drinking. when i’ve been drinking, all my weird hangups about making mistakes and sounding stupid disappear. several times this year, different friends have said “omg, i love drunk hilary! she’s so much fun!” and it took me awhile to figure out the difference between sober me and drunk me; i just don’t give a fuck after a Jameson or two. or half a 4Loko.
here’s another example of this stupid thing: i was drunk when i told that guy how i feel about him. i don’t want to have to be drunk to say what’s on my mind. not wanting to mess up is keeping me from being the best me i can be. that must change. today.
It’s no good unless it’s real, hill sides burning,
Wild-eyed turning til we’re running from it.
I’d take care of you if you’d ask me to,
In a year or two.
“Take Care” by Beach House
read this if you want to cry. read this if you don’t want to cry.
Actual Children’s Answers to The Question “What Is Love?”
“Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs.” - Chrissy, age 6
“Love is what makes you smile when you’re tired.” - Terri, age 4
“Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK.” - Danny, age 7
“Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss.” - Emily, age 8“Love is what’s in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen.” - Bobby, age 7
“If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate,” - Nikka, age 6
“Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday.” - Noelle, age 7
“Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well.” - Tommy, age 6
“During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn’t scared anymore.” - Cindy, age 8
“My mommy loves me more than anybody. You don’t see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night.” - Clare, age 6
“Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken.” - Elaine, age 5
“Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Brad Pitt.” - Chris, age 7
“Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day.” - Mary Ann, age 4
“I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones.” - Lauren, age 4
“When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn’t bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That’s love.” - Rebecca, age 8
“When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you.” - Karen, age 7
“You really shouldn’t say ‘I love you’ unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget.” - Jessica, age 8
(Source: harlemink)
every time i agree to do something i don’t want to do, i say “alright” like Scar in this scene.
i’ve got an inkling this isn’t about horses.
I’ve been on horses for years that didn’t move. So I hopped off and walked away.
I’ve had horses run incredibly fast beneath me. In the wrong direction.
I’ve seen horses run incredibly fast in the right direction. Miles off in the distance.
I’ve accidentally shot horses while riding them.
I’ve intentionally shot horses while riding them.
I’ve had horses slowly let me down. Then just trot away.
I’ve been on horses that bucked like hell the whole time. Then danced on my face once they got me on the ground.
Once I just walked for a year.
During that time, an amazing horse walked alongside me sometimes. Then one day it pulled off its horse costume to reveal that it was Mike Tyson. Then Mike Tyson taught me a few things about stopping Mike Tyson’s fists with my face. Then Mike Tyson walked away while laughing and telling me he’d be watching me.
Same old story.
But I kept walking.
Because I was smart enough to know I had no business riding horses, but not smart enough to realize that it was because I was horrible at choosing horses.
That was then.
on zombies.
- me: i'm going to wear chainmail during the zombie apocalypse.
- floyd: that won't work. it's too heavy.
- me: i'm gonna be so strong by that time.
- floyd: ...
